.my feeling.

what's my feeling now?
i felt so complicated.
i felt so confused.
i felt like i am nothing!
i felt my world was small as a dust.
i felt i got nothing to choose.
i felt lonely although i'm wasn't alone.
i felt everyone is liars.
i felt i'm not important for anyone.
i felt cold.
i felt loveless.
i felt warmless.
i felt you want advantages from me.
you are not sinceres.
everyone's not sincere.
NOT!
but, why?
confusing, complicating.............

Belated CNY

Happie Chinese Moo Year 0o........................
i know it's so damn late to wish this.
yesterday is 15meh lo.
muahaha~
sorry about this....
it's been a long time i never update my blog.
well..............
How's your cny?
had fun?
yea....
as well as me.
had a lots fun at my hometown.
but got gastric. [drink too much, i think. who cares?]
keep on vomitting o... sienz dou!
actually i still got a new year clother never wear yet.
bought it at i-sock. expensive dao.................................
I had my new hair style lo.
happy~
Yu Mi Tang... tau?
My ang pao so damn few lo. disappointed! fuh~
i going to finish it very very very soon!
never mind, happy jiu ho... right? ^^
a lots story, but i believe no one so eng to read my story hor?
hehe~
endz up here.

here i come, PICHA! :~

First day of CNY

Kra kra and yin yin in da house

Second day of CNY

mama's spec... cool wei! muahaha~

After vomitted! [still got mood to took picture?]
Went everywhere, bring card along everywhere! =.= [i didn't play.]
Happy Birthday Michael!!! He's birthday is on 2nd of CNY...

We surprised him with a cake. Due to he's staying at a condominium. So hard for us to surprised him. No one will understand. Only US knows!

Back to school

Ooupps~
Not school but college...
yeah, finally.............. My lovely holiday was over! Had fun! Know a lots of new friends at hometown. Always hanged out drank and drunk with them and my brother. Where? Of course is Sun lo. Love there so much. I fell in love with singing la. ^^ oh ya, Happy belated Chrismas and New Year to all my friends.

Actually i got a lots of stories to share, but don't know what to write and how to begin. =P

Well, my 3rt semester is begun, today is first day school reopen. But then, ponteng for the first class due to some reason. hiak hiak hiak~ Lazy to explain it lah! [Don't kepo! kaka~] Tomorrow's classes, 8am-1oam and 12pm-2pm. After that? Hang kai lo! Missed KL a lots. Feel like shopping, but then 6pm got dance club. Next time lu. No kaki some more... who willing to accompany me shopping? lolx~ Though, i just end up here. Tomorrow morning got class, night all~

haiz~

What a lame day? Got to woke up on 8.30am! Not feeling well again, Cloudy sakit tekak!!! Though, got to met up with uncle seng, paid him the fee, and then go wisma what what don't know to make my new ic. Balik rumah afterward. Makan nasi with crab, DELICIOUS!!! yummy yummy, i been waiting for so long to eat crab ler. Finally~ i love you daddy...^^ Took Panadol Actifast after ate, terus tidur mati. My phone rang for so many times, but still can't wake up. i slept from 2pm til 6something ler. Tdo like a babi! woke up, makan pulak. sei mei~ eat, sleep, wake up, eat then sleep again? Zhadou~ Those lemakness is looking for me, i know! Fat fat holiday lo...

The stupid brother going out but don't want to bring me go along! Shit him!!! Let me boring at home. hate him hate him! Thought already promise to bring me go kai kai during i coming back kelantan, manatau? Still the same, never bring me go anywhere! tiu~ what i'm going to do now? Sienz like hell! haiz~

Why am i still sms-ing you? I also don't understand myself. I thought i am angrying you now. Actually i was not, not at all. haiz~ Just, still can't accept what you had did to me. Or? I already forgive you? OMG! Confusing with myself.

kelantan-ing

Yo, Cloudy in the house....
Cloudy at kelantan now. hmmmmm.... eat eat eat and sleep! Cham lo... 2 weeks at here will be bring 10kg back KL lo. Those lemak, STAY AWAY FROM ME!!!! OMG!! Haiz~ what a bored day, internet's suck, can't on msn also. But i still enjoy at my own house better than KL. ^^ comfortable. Just eat and sleep. keke~ Just 2 days at here, i already can feel the 'lemak'ness in my body. sh*t! Nothing to do at home, no place to go too. Feel like going beach, but then mom said december go beach very dangerous.

Haiz~ Moody!!! Cause of that stupid thing, make me confuse, blur, and moody!

心情低落。。。

现在的心情很down，但不知道要向谁谈心事。现在已经是凌晨四点钟了。全部人都在发着甜蜜的梦了吧！竟然在我考final时发生这种事情。令到我没心要读书了。等一下又是考两个科目。读也读不进头脑了。为什么连一个我认为很单纯，很好，很信得过的一个人都是个卑鄙，简直就是个奸人！世上真的没有好人了吗？都死去哪里了？绝种了吗？还是我对这‘新的世界’还不够了解？是我太信得过人家了？还是我太单纯了？为什么一直被人家骗的？我最信任的都是骗着我的。那我还可以信任谁呢？我真的是无力了，不想呆在这里了，这里都是骗人的世界，奸人世界！我想回去属于我的地方，过着无忧无虑的生活，很多人都尊敬我的地方。我再也不敢再信任任何人了。这次是真的受到很大很大的教训了。我独自一个人也不错，至少没有人会来骗我感情吧！不是别人单纯，而是我自己。我一定要改变我自己！不要再让任何人再来伤害我了。。。是我太笨了！

Today~

Finished Computing Studies paper. Still can breath la. Lucky got little chen, he was teaching me til so late night. Thanks ya bro!! The part A easy la, part B is MCD or objective, okok la, part C is fill in the blank, i really BLANK lo, part D is true or false, aiya~ tembak aje! Though, still ok for this paper. Tomorrow is last day of examination, I still have 2 papers to go on, Basic concept of mathematics and Quantitative Method. Both are math, mati boleh! Later maybe going to study with my friends. But then never get any phone call from them yet. Tonight tak payah tidur lagi lah, 2 subjects wei! Tak mati pun almost masuk kubor. Tomorrow night going back my LOVELY yet SWEETY hometown. 8.30pm train, lucky got Adelynn be my company, abo sienz sui. 12hours++ ler. Nothing can do on the train.

I feel like eating prosperity burger at MCD ler. My favourite burger, the best-est burger i ever eat. yummy yummy.......................... Don't know when only got change to eat? but fat ler!

ok then, short short for today. Got to add oil le. bubbye~